adjective.  sufficiently good, important, or interesting

noun. high value or merit

In all my writing, the single topic I seem to have covered extensively is my very own existence. My life direction, meaning and pot holes. While I can appreciate this has given me a lot material to muse upon, I realise that to beat a dead horse does not help anyone, including myself. Along with this revelation, another greater one has come to me. I seem to have found the reason for my wanting more. The reason for my moving forward.

I seek worth. I want to have worth. Like you, dear reader, I am unsure what this means. So that shall have to be step one in this journey of sorts. At least I know now what it is I seek even if I can not define it yet. If the only proof of ever being alive is what people remember and our actions, well then it seems easy. But where to start? I hope people remember me. Hell, I hope people like me. But that’s not really enough. One can not base their life and actions on what people think. So the obvious question is : do I like who I am, who I have become become?

I could say I am at step one yet again in my thinking, but I think I am little further than that. I at least know what path I seek. That’s more than just a couple of months ago. I seek worth. Now I just need to attain it. Even if I don’t know how to attain it. I suppose that in order to attain worth, one must know oneself. Which then begs the question: do I even know myself? So much to ponder on, and yet, so little. I am but one in a multitude. I only have my words, and tonight dear reader, they are failing even me…

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Evan Russell · July 31, 2012 at 10:38 am

If one should ever say they know thyself. I will laugh because change is constant. We all change from one point to another. I hear all the time “this person gets me where no one else does”. How can someone know you better than you know yourself? Its not possible because we wake up each morning and look in the mirror and there's another grey hair or a more receeding hair line. Change is constant in appearance and expression as well as emotional and spiritual bc we are always learning and growing.

Worth… no one is ever worthy. We all have our perfect imperfections that make us who we are. Dysfunctional at best.

What are you worth? Sell yourself and find out how others see you as worth. Go to the street corner and beg for money. How do people see your worth? Walk into a church wearing sandals and ripped jeans and ripped shirt. What's your worth there?

Worth of oneself is somewhat of a selfish idea because it means you strive for worth and acceptance, you want to be in the limelight. The grass is not always greener on the other side. . .

Your worth varies.

How do you value yourself? How do other value and how worthy are you to them? There is no right answer. For some people you are their everything and have worth. To others, you are nothing and have no worth.

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